Monday, December 21, 2009

Know exactly how I really feel

Honestly speaking, I really can't feel the spirit of Christmas. Judge me as Scrooge or something but that's exactly how I really feel. Anger, pain, heartaches, frustration, betrayal, everything! All piled up inside my heart. I can only remember Christmas when I'm seeing decors and hearing Christmas songs. I don't know how am I gonna get rid of these feelings but I'm still hoping that just before the clock strikes at 12 midnight on the 24th, I will be able to celebrate Christmas whole-heartedly. :'(
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White Horse - Taylor Swift

(heartaches)


Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now

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Through The Rain - Mariah Carey

(pains)



When you get caught in the rain
With no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved


But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is


I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain


And if you keep falling down, don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is


I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain


And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close
Don't be afraid, there's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you, you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say


I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain


I can make it through the rain
As I live once again
And I live one more day
I can make it through the rain
Yes you can
You gonna make it through the rain
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When You Believe - Mariah Carey

(frustrations)



Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand


Now we are not afraid
Although we know there?s much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could


Oh yes, there can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It?s hard to kill


Who knows what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe


In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away


And now I am standing here
My heart?s so full, I can?t explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I?d say


There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It?s hard to kill


Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe


They don?t always happen when you ask
And it?s easy to give in to your fear, ohh
But when you?re blinded by your pain
Can?t see your way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near


There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It?s hard to kill


Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will, how you will
You will when you believe


You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you believe